for everyday the wind stands still, cherish it.

if you know what this means, then you have felt this. the feeling of complete bliss, even though things aren't perfect around you. right now i just feel at so much peace, because the guy i like finally asked me out. he keeps telling me to tell him anything, but its so hard, we haven't even been together a day. thats why i am scared. i am not good at commentments. i have always ran away, but now i am fighting all those feelings, and stay here. this is where i want to stay, and i want to trust him, but how can you trust someone right off the bat. there are some things that i'm dealing with now, and i can't tell anyone. i have told one person part of it, and mentioned it here. but i can't tell someone about all of it. they would freak if they found out, no matter what they say, they will. i'm not normal. right now i'm at complete bliss, but the storm is still raging on, inside of my head. when everything stops for a second it will pick up speed in a matter of minutes. i am were i want to be, well i want something more, but i'm scared about how long this will last.

this will be my last post for over a week, sorry. i'm going on vacation, and i'm only slightly excited. wish me luck, this is going to be a long week.